Receiving

The more I experience and practice RECEIVING,

The more I realize…how scared I am to do so.
When I listen deeply to the paradigms living inside me,
I discover that receiving is tangled with meanings like:

If I receive —
I’m weak.
I’m incapable.
I’m less.
I’m losing control.
I’m failing.
I’m creating debt with others.

Receiving feels so vulnerable.
Because if I want to receive, I have to drop my protection.
And for so long, protection meant: GIVING.
My whole life, I’ve given my center to YOU —
Sensing, smelling, and reading what you need,
So I could serve you.
And in your gratitude… I would feel loved.

But when I receive…
I lose that “safety.”
I can’t hide behind my doing anymore.
It’s just me.
Letting you come close.
Letting you touch me.

And the fear whispers:
Do you love me?
Do you want to be with me?
Am I enough —
even when I do nothing for you?
What do you think of me when I receive?
When I let go of control?
When I let you help me, hold me?

I let the fear whisper...
I listen to the voices.
And I relax into them.
Yes. This is a deep, deep root of an ancient legacy, passed on from mother to daughter.

And today, I decide to swim against the stream.
To embody new information.

I choose to open myself for RECEIVING.
I decide that it is safe for me to receive.

And I allow the vulnerability, the lovemaking, that starts happening,
when I drop my armor and open myself -
to receive.

🌺 What does RECEIVING mean to you?

🌺 What do you feel and experience when you allow yourself to receive?